burning ted

I just got back from Burning Man less than a week ago. In 4 days time I have proceeded to burn down my life in LA. I've given 2 weeks notice to resigning from my ad agency job of about 4 years. I've given 30 days notice to my landlord to moving out of my apartment of about 5 years. I've discussed with my family and a number of friends my intention to move to NYC in about a month and a half. I've been thinking of doing this for over a year now. My head is still filled with doubt and fear. But I am burning away my indecisiveness step by step. I'm feeling sentimental and sad... but it is more painful thinking of turning back. I am filled with curiosity and anticipation.

Age 11

My parents are remodeling the house, so I am asked once again to clean out my childhood bedroom, and sent on a journey down memory lane. The last time I cleaned my old room was about 5 years ago. What I learned then was that most of my toys were of villans (Skeletor, Beastman, Deceptacons, etc.). They always seemed cooler to me, and more interesting. Or actually, I found them to be funny; they amused me more than the heros. I never believed that they were truly evil. Though they were dangerous in their fantasy realm, they were cute in this reality.